Saturday, June 19, 2010

Visions of Self


AlienFamilyJewels, originally uploaded by carolsLittleWorld.

The other day I had to submit my picture into something. Being a photographer, I usually don't mind sending in a photo, hey it's what I do, right? But, this time I noticed something odd. In all of my self-portraits, you can't really see my face. I mean, yes, they are self-portraits, but, most of the time, they are so abstract, I look like a blur, I'm moving, or something else is going on. It's hard to find me looking like, well, me.

Maybe that's by design, really. I mean, I don't actually want to look at myself, right? I just shove myself in there because, hey, let's face it, I'm a cheap model, but, you know, still, it might be nice if you could actually, I don't know, maybe see me in a shot or two. Wouldn't it? This is actually the closest I've come to taking a shot where you can see my face (sort of) and even this one is really a far away kind of a shot.

Now, I'm doing a new series of self-portraits and, hate to say it, but they'll probably be blurry and out-of-focus too. I know, I know, it would be nice if I could look "whole" in one but, let's face it, old habits die hard. And, the blurry wild stuff is so much more, well, interesting, isn't it?

Does it bother you that you don't know what I look like? Really? Is it more fun to have the voice from the blur? Or would you rather I be more upfront about it all? Would you rather my self-portraits be clear and presentable? (Questions to ponder.)

Until next time...

4 comments:

mythopolis said...

Umm, are you the one standing to the left of that girl? Or are you the one on the right?

Carol said...

Lol! Good one, Mythos. By now, you should know that I'm actually the spacey one-the space ship on top!

Kala said...

I HATE doing self-portraits. Kudos to you for your attempts, partially covered face and all!

Carol said...

Thanks, Kala! It took me a while but I've grown kind of used to it now. It helps that I've come to realize that I'm the cheapest model I can find. :~)

Of course, as the old saying goes, "sometimes, you get what you pay for!" (Or, in my case, don't pay for.)